angel.

brew. that was me before.

had to change it because of ehem.

miss the old days

awakend by a question.
this silent hurt will never last long.

i'm finally breathing again.
so relieved.

Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

~ Delta Goodrem - Born to try

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taebo? pilates? i'll forget them for awhile..eyetoys here!!!!

i'm doing much better now (physically that is tee hee). ty!!
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im so cruel. evil. low.


i so hate myself right now.
sorry ha.

get well soon... tc...

by the way, i've got the flu.. and i'm blogging like theres no tomorrow.

dad introduced me to his music when i was 4 years old. my childhood was filled with country music, jazz, motown,.. i miss those days.


Johnny Cash - Hurt

I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear my crown of thorns
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt

I will let you down
I will make you hurt

if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Am I real? Do the words I speak before you make feel
That the love I've got for you will see no ending?

Well if you look into my eyes then you should know
That you have nothing here to doubt nothing to fear
And you can lay your questions down 'cause if you'll hold me
we can fade into the night and you'll know


The world would die and everything may lie
Still you shldn't cry 'Cause time may pass
But longer than it'll last I'll be by your side

Take my hand And gently close your eyes so you could understand
That there's no greater love tonight than what I've for you
Well if you feel the same way for me then let go

We can journey to a garden no one knows
Life is short my darling tell me that you love me

So we can fade into the night and you'll know
The world could die and everything may lie
But you won't cry 'cause time may pass
And everything won't last but I'll be by your side
Forever by your side so you won't cry

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Oh, love of my life
Destined forever
I will be right here
By your side
No falling tears
When we're together
You know the joy
You bring to me



Never, there'll be no other
We'll share as lovers
Right from the heart
From my mind to your soul
I will give it to you girl
My every little thing
That I'm more than willing
I will give to you


Forever starts from now
I promise you
Lovin' you is all
That I can do
No one can take it
Away from me
Nobody but you


Now is the time stars will be bright
Our bodies will groove
All through the night
Come take my hand
Then we will fly high
Come on baby hear me say



There'll be no time
For sad goodbyes
Without you here
I can't get by
Don't you go away

this is more than beautiful.

(been browsing the photos.ph for an hour now. yey.)
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never write a mail after 3 smirnoffs...

i hope nw accepts my decision... and respects it.

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Dido - White Flag
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3rd day of school.... and i'm bored already.
watched reruns of ally mcbeal last night, i cried with her while listening to this. cheesy, i know.